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4.27.2007

pagtatapos

Gusto ko lang i-share tong na-receive kong forwarded na e-mail, yung speech ng valedictorian ng UP this year [hehehe. nakaka-aliw minsan na-feature siya sa isang publication di ko sure kung kule yun o UP newsletter tas sobrang kamukha niya yung isang orgmate ko sa erg, si Nicky] anyways, eto yung speech niya:
Mikaela Irene Fudolig – BS PhysicsSpeech at the Commencement
Exercises, UPDApril 22, 2007

One of the things that strike me as
being very “UP Diliman” is the way UPD students can’t seem to stay on the
pavement. From every street corner that bounds an unpaved piece of land, one
will espy a narrow trail that cuts the corner, or leads from it. Every lawn
around the buildings sports at least one of these paths, starting from a point
nearest to the IKOT stop and ending at the nearest entry to the building. The
trails are beaten on the grass by many pairs of feet wanting to save a fraction
of a meter of traveling, no matter that doing so will exact some cost to the
shoes, or, to the ubiquitous slippers, especially when the trails are
new.
What do these paths say about us, UP students?
One could say that the
UP student is enamored with Mathematics and Pythagoras, hence these triangles
formed by the pavement and the path. Many among you would disagree.
Others
could say that the UP student is naturally countercultural. And the refusal to
use the pavement is just one of the myriads of ways to show his defiance of the
order of things. This time, many would agree.
Still, others will say that the
UP student is the model of today’s youth: they want everything easier, faster,
now. The walkable paths appeal to them because they get to their destination
faster, and presumably, with less effort. Now that is only partly true, and
totally unfair.
These trails weren’t always walkable. No doubt they started
as patches of grass, perhaps overgrown. Those who first walked them must have
soiled their shoes, stubbed their toes, or had insects biting their legs, all in
the immovable belief that the nearest distance between two points is a straight
line. They might even have seen snakes cross their paths. But the soiled
footwear, sore toes, and itchy legs started to conquer the grass. Other people,
seeing the yet faint trail, followed. And as more and more walked the path, the
grass gave in and stopped growing altogether, making the path more and more
visible, more and more walkable.
The persistence of the paths pays tribute to
those UP students who walked them first – the pioneers of the unbeaten tracks:
the defiant and curious few who refuse the familiar and comfortable; the
out-of-the-box thinkers who solve problems instead of fretting about them; the
brave who dare do things differently, and open new opportunities to those who
follow.
They say how one behaved in the past would determine how he behaves
in the future. And as we leave the University, temporarily or for good, let us
call on the pioneering, defiant, and brave spirit that built the paths to guide
us in this next phase of our life.
We have been warned time and again. Our
new world that they call “adulthood” is one that’s full of compromises, where
success is determined more by the ability to belong than by the ability to
think, where it is much easier to do as everyone else does. Daily we are
bombarded with so much news of despair about the state of our nation, and the
apparent, perverse sense of satisfaction our politicians get from vilifying our
state of affairs. It is fashionable to migrate to other countries to work in
deceptively high-paying jobs like nursing and teaching, forgetting that even at
their favored work destinations, nurses and teachers are some of the lowest paid
professionals. The lure of high and immediate monetary benefits in some low-end
outsourcing jobs has drawn even some of the brightest UP students away from both
industry and university teaching to which they would have been better
suited.
Like the sidewalks and pavement, these paths are the easiest to take.
But, like the sidewalks and pavement, these paths take longer to traverse,
just as individual successes do not always make for national progress. The
unceasing critic could get elected, but not get the job done. The immigrant
could get his visa, but disappear from our brainpower pool. The highly paid
employee would be underutilized for his skills, and pine to get the job he truly
wants, but is now out of his reach. And the country, and we, are poorer because
of these.
Today, the nation needs brave, defiant pioneers to reverse our
nation’s slide to despair. Today, we must call upon the spirit that beat the
tracks. Today, we must present an alternative way of doing things.
Do NOT
just take courage, for courage is not enough. Instead, be BRAVE! It will take
bravery to go against popular wisdom, against the clichéd expectations of family
and friends. It will take bravery to gamble your future by staying in the
country and try to make a prosperous life here. It might help if for a start, we
try to see why our Korean friends are flocking to our country. Why, as many of
us line up for immigrant visas in various embassies, they get themselves
naturalized and settle here. Do they know something we don’t?
Do NOT just be
strong in your convictions, for strength is not enough. Instead, DEFY the
pressure to lead a comfortable, but middling life. Let us lead this country from
the despair of mediocrity. Let us not seek to do well, but strive to EXCEL in
everything that we do. This, so others will see us as a nation of brains of the
highest quality, not just of brawn that could be had for cheap.
Take NOT the
road less traveled. Rather, MAKE new roads, BLAZE new trails, FIND new routes to
your dreams. Unlike the track-beaters in campus who see where they’re going, we
may not know how far we can go. But if we are brave, defiant searchers of
excellence, we will go far. Explore possibilities, that others may get a similar
chance. I have tried it myself. And I’m speaking to you now.
But talk is
cheap, they say. And so I put my money where my mouth is. Today, I place myself
in the service of the University, if it will have me. I would like to teach, to
share knowledge, and perhaps to be an example to new UP students in thinking and
striving beyond the limits of the possible. This may only be a small disturbance
in the grass. But I hope you’ll come with me, and trample a new path.
Good
evening, everyone.


Okay lang pero di ko masyadong gusto. pero opinyon ko lang naman to.

anyways, meron akong dalawang nabasa na valedictory speech (2005 at 2006) na sobrang nagandahan ako. eto basahin niyo: valedictory speech (Anna Theresa licaros) // valedictory speech (Donald Ngwe)

4.24.2007

il dire*



Dahil wala akong magawa ngayon [ay, actually, meron akong ginagawa pero wala lang, baka sabihin ng iba ano...], binabasa ko yung mga dati kong entries sa blog na 'to. Naaaliw ako, more than a year na rin tong brokensunset. Last time, tinanong ni Faye kung saan ko raw ba nakuha yung "brokensunset". Kung papakinggan mo kasi, parang may deeper meaning or something, pero wala. Brokensunset yung pangalan nung dati kong column sa Insights. Dati, gusto ko sa Hale, ayun, yung broken eh galing sa broken sonnet. Tapos yung sunset, di ko maalala kung saan ko eksaktong nakuha yun, basta galing lang yun sa peyups.com. Minsan, gusto kong baguhin yung pangalan ng blog na 'to, palitan ng something na mas may sense o something na mas may meaning sa akin pero ayoko na rin kasi isang beses lang ako nakapagsulat dun sa nasabi kong column sa Insights. So parang eto yung extension nung column na yun.


Natutuwa ako habang binabasa yung mga lumang posts. Ako ba yan? Yak, talaga. Ang emo ko. Ang korni ko. May mga entries ako na gustong burahin [ala. bakit ko ba to sinulat dito? pano ngay kung nabasa niya to? ala. nakakahiya] pero hinahayaan ko na lang.


Hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon nagblo-blog pa rin ako. Wala namang nagbabasa nito. Pero naaaliw lang ako sa aking kunwaring pagshe-share ng mga bagay bagay sa buhay ko.


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last time, nagkita-kita kami nina Faye at Jonee. Nagbadminton kami. Grabe. I lost three pounds pero bumalik din yung three pounds na yung nung kumain kami dun sa bahay nina Faye. Ayun, nanood kami nung A Millionaire's First Love. nakakakilig. wala lang.


Sobrang natutuwa ako pag nagkikita-kita kami tuwing vacation. Iba-iba kasi yung mga schools namin kaya syempre tuwing vacation lang kami nagkikita-kita. Ayun. sobrang I feel blessed sa aming friendship. Wala lang. Noon kasi, I have this fear na baka pag nahiwahiwalay kami, parang things will change, na parang di na kami friends [napaka-childish ko talaga] pero hindi naman naging ganun. Kahit na we don't see each other all the time, andun pa rin yung connection eh. Tapos ganun pa rin yung feeling ko, na ang saya saya nila kasama, na I could tell them everything.
basta. ganun. malabo lang talaga ako mag-explain.


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Kanina, medyo naglinis ako dun sa kwarto tapos nung dumaan ako sa sala para magtapon ng basura, sabi ni Lorenz "waaa. Hindi ikaw ang ate ko!!"


Tapos na ang mga araw ng aking pagmumukmok sa kwarto at walang hanggang panonood ng ALIAS. Alam niyo kung bakit?


kasi masaya na ako :)



* il dire, which means "the telling", is the last episode of ALIAS I saw.

4.18.2007

random quotes

"Ang KJ naman, thesis lang" - Kuya Ray

[wahahaha. Ito ang sabi niya nung nalaman ang dahilan kung bakit wala si Ate Jill sa sem-ender/induction ng Sillag nung Monday last week.]


Speaking of Sillag, medyo naging "active" ako this past few months. hehe. Nung start ng second sem, hindi naman ako nag-aattend masyado sa mga GA pero this year, ayun nag-aattend na rin ako. Since nagsimula yung activity with Rev's (classmate ni Kuya Dustin in a BA class or something) group, nagpupunta na ako dun sa mga GAs and activities. Nung unang meeting kasi with the group, sinabi nila yung tungkol sa kanilang project na kung saan io-observe nila yung org tapos i-evaluate, magbigay ng mga suggestions, etc tapos tinanong kami isa isa kung bakit kami namomotivate na sumali/mag-found nitong org na to. Tapos nun sabi ko, hindi ko alam. Ininvite lang ako tapos um-oo na ako kasi wala namang app process, di naman masyadong matrabaho, parang "ayos lang, sige na nga". Tapos nun narinig ko yung mga reason nung mga upperclass (yung mga nag-found) sa org. Nakwento nila yung mga experiences nila na kapag tinatanong sila kung saang province sila galing at sinasagot nila eh "La Union", tinatanong nila kung saan yun ("sa Cebu ba yun?"); ayun parang gusto nilang makilala yung La Union sa UP. Tapos sabi ni Ate Flau, gusto ko raw niya na parang pag nasa LU siya, andun pa rin yung identity niya as an isko/iska. Dati, ang tingin ko kasi parang "wala lang", parang gusto lang nilang gumawa ng org nila tapos ayun nalaman ko na gusto pala nila na marecognize yung LU sa UP, na gusto nilang mag-give back sa province namin.


Ayan, balik tayo dun sa sem-ender/induction. Kasama namin dito yung Baguio chapter ng Sillag. Acapulco yung venue. Masaya. outnumbered ang Diliman. hehehe. Ayos lang. Ang daming mga Bio majors sa Baguio, pansin ko lang.


Nag-games kami. Una ay yung parang get-to-know-chorva ni Ate Jai. May idinikit siya sa noo namin paper na concealed yung laman tapos nung nalagyan na kaming lahat, ni-reveal na yung laman tapos yung mga adjectives na andun yun yung parang mga traits namin at hahanap kami ng tao na may gusto nung mga yun. I-interview. get to know each other. Meron nang-approach sa akin nung una, tinanong ako kung gusto ko yung mga traits na yun, sabi ko "hindi eh". Bad, Ayi, bad. After makahanap ng partner at nag-interview. Isa isa naming sinabi sa group yung mga bagay na nalaman namin tungkol dun sa partner namin. tapos in-explain yung point nung game na yun. Hindi lahat eh nakakuha ng magandang adjective kaya syempre, hindi assured na may gustong makapartner ka. Actually, hanggang dun lang na part yung pinakinggan ko. (lagot ka kay Ate Jai) Wala lang. Napaisip ako kasi diba nga yung merong akong inayawan. Wala lang. Hindi naman necessarily na eto yung mga characteeristics naman pero dun sa time na yun, naisip ko lang yung mga hindi magagandang characteristics ko (na medyo marami ata), napaisip ako kung bakit ayaw ko na yung isang tao eh may ganitong trait eh ganun din lang naman ako. Wala lang. Parang ang unfair ko naman. tama na nga.


Sunod na game ay yung waterball. Ayun batuhan lang ng mga plastic na may lamang tubig.


Tapos nun, nagsisisigaw lang kami dun. Naligo na sila, bumalik kami sa cottage, kumain, nagkwentuhan, dumating si Faye, ayun nagkwekwentuhan lang kami hanggang dumating sina Mama at sinundo ako. hehe.


Active pala yung yahoogroups namin ngayon. hehe. natuwa naman ako. everyday (almost) na may narereceive akong update. Wala lang. Napansin ko lang. Nakakatuwa naman.



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(singing) "umaasa kahit na wala na..." -Lorenz


Nakaupo lang ako sa may kama tapos bigla niyang kinanta yung linyang iyon tapos sinampal ako. Ano ba?! Nakatunganga lang ako eh. Hindi ko alam kung saan kinukuha ng kapatid ko ang mga theory niya tungkol sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko.



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(Ang transformation ng graph ng equation ay) parang pagshi-shift sa course, reflect muna bago mag-shift. - Ma'am Bargo


Sinabi sa amin ito ni Ma'am Bargo sometime last year. Relatively, marami sa mga blockmates/batchmates ko ang magshi-shift sa ibang course next sem. Wala lang. Napag-uusapan lang namin ni Joseph M. last time. Natatakot ako. Actually, nahihirapan na rin ako sa CoE pero stick to EEE pa rin ang drama ko. Natatakot ako kasi baka pag dating pa 2nd/3rd year eh bigla kong ma-realize na ayoko ko pala sa CoE o baka mapatalsik ako sa department dahil sa retention rule or something. wala lang. nakakatakot.



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aaaccckkk. ang boring ng summer. paulit ulit ko lang pinapanood ang ALIAS, Little Manhattan at Never Been Kissed. Ewan.

4.05.2007

tapos na...

...ang second sem




Yung week bago yung finals, medyo nalulungkot ako dahil matatapos na 'tong sem na to eh nag-eenjoy pa naman ako. Tapos ngayon, parang naisip ko na "ako? nag-enjoy?". Well, somehow, nag-enjoy naman ako pero... parang iba kasi yung feeling. Ngayong second sem kasi, medyo mas tahimik, mas wala akong ginagawa, parang wala lang. parang ang bilis natapos tong sem na to. ayos lang din.

Wala akong mga kwento ngayon. Boring ang second sem. Madalas nung first sem, naghahanap ako ng tsismis tungkol sa mga dating kaklase, para bang namimiss ko sila or something. Pero nung 2nd sem, hindi na. Nawalan na rin ako ng gana. Madalas, may sarili akong mundo. Lumalayo ako sa mga tao sa dahilang hindi ko rin alam. Most of the time, meron akong sariling mundo.

ayun. masaya. tapos na ang second sem.

[PS hindi pala ako magsummer. dati, gusto ko. pero ngayon ayoko na. dahil (1) pumasa naman ako sa math 53 (yes! hehe. hindi ako makatulog ng maayos mula nung binigay yung result ng 4th LE. pero ngayong nalaman kong pumasa ako, ok na ako.) (2) kailangan kong magpahinga ("talaga lang ha?")]